Have you ever had a feeling, that's like an unwelcomed guest? It invades your mind, and no matter how hard you deny, misdirect, or avoid it, you just can't make it go away. You tell yourself you can control it, but the truth is, it's never that easy. Deciding not to do something? No problem. But deciding not to feel something? Whole other ballgame.

Feelings,
So often we fool ourselves into thinking we can control them. Until one day, we're ambushed, caught off guard by rage, or jealousy, or love. And we're forced to face the truth. The truth is this: You can't control how you feel. Only what you do about it.

world wide open

"World Wide Open I need to move, I need to breathe Shake the things that pull on me Holding me down, slowing me down I need to run, I need to fight Let go of the things that I Am holding on to, maybe I need to Open up my eyes so I can see What's always been there right in front of me Roads, which one will I take Marks, which one will I make In this world wide open, this world wide open
Evey day's an open page A brand new start, a fresh clean slate Given to me, now it's up to me To find my best and lose my worst And try to heal the things I hurt I know I need to Make my mistake sand leave them in the past And make the most of every chance I have I'm gonna grab it by both handles and drink As it's spillin' over, as it's spillin'over me"

Want

Rob Bell once said....
"I want to be the kind of person who dose the right thing. And I don't just mean the big things where right and wrong are obvious and easy, but I mean the small things. The subtle, unnoticed things."

I want to be that kind of person! I honestly want to stand up and do what is right! Even more so when the line of right and wrong is blurry and the subject is grey. But I think sometime our feelings can stop us. I Believe, our feelings give us room to do the easy thing, To sit and NOT stand. Even when that feeling is coming from a sincere pace. We can't allow that feeling to rule our decision. I wish I could say that I'm there but I guess at 23 yr old I'm still discovering that. I'm still trying to separate the two. I'm still try to found that line of doing what you feel and Just doing the right thing.

Truth and lies

Sometime I wonder if anything's absolute anymore. Is there still;
Rght and wrong?
Good and bad?
Truth and lies?
Or is everthing negotiable, left to interprelation, grey. sometime we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we're faced with things that are not of our making. and somethimes things just simply catch up to us and the truth comes out.


Truth is aboslute. BELIVE THAT. Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful then you've ever imagined, and even when truth is more cruel then any lie.